I used to laugh at those fuzzy-headed, fuzzy-haired, crumpled women I would see in the grocery line...you know back in the day when I wore heels and skirts and hose to work. Then I got pg and the first thing that went were the hose, then the heels and then the skirts. Then the roots started to show and the manicures/pedicures started to get pushed. Finally, the chic clothes and awesome bags that were purchased for each season got stored or donated because they don't fit my hips and cant hold a diaper and wipes.
Somehow I became that crumpled, dishevelled woman that I used to laugh at. I have forgotten who I am and what I am interested in. I have to double and triple check whether the class at the local rec center is during a time where the kids are in school/camp because it's not worth it to pay $300 for a 6 week class and then spend an addition $200 on babysitting. By the time I've checked the calendar again, either the class is full, or I've found the registration materials in time for the last session.
Housework is my full-time job and when it's caught up, there's at least 3-7 half finished projects that I feel guilty that I'm not working on. None of the boys have scrapbooks, and I mostly forget who did/said what by the end of the day, so saving it for posterity and a good laugh ain't happening. I stripped Jonah's wallpaper about 2 months ago, but I still haven't finished spackelling and sanding the walls. I bought a skein of yarn and The Idiots Guide to Knitting and Crocheting around 7 weeks ago, and it's in a bag in my closet with all of the clothes that I've outgrown over the last 8 months.
Motherhood is the hardest job that I could ever imagine, and I thank God everyday that both my IRL and on-line friends are there for me, because you each make me feel like I'm not a failure for just being me.
Today I had my app't with the endocrinologist (I tried to leave it as endo, but I always read that as endometriosis now.) He took more blood and did a tyroid u/s. He wont up my synthroid dosage yet, because I've only been taking the 50mcgs for 3 days, but he believes that he'll up it back to where it was before my pg's. Also, he's testing me for insulin resistance which would also explain the weight-gain and is something that he said often occurs after having GD. I guess there's no speeding up this process, but at least I'm in action about it working with a dr that seems to be very pro-active and agressive, which fits perfectly with my temperment.